For as long as I can remember, I have experienced cycles of feeling invisible. It happened again this weekend, in two different relationships. As I found myself ruminating on feeling loneliness, fear, confusion, etc, and powerless within the dynamic, I realized that I was looking externally for validation, acknowledgement, recognition.
I was taking the behavior of the two relationships, and the perceived lack of attention and reciprocity, personally, and I was viewing their behavior through the lens of my belief/pattern that I was invisible...that my needs didn't matter...that they have the power to harm me.
I was taking their behavior personally, and giving it the meaning that I was invisible and powerless.
It's a pattern of disconnecting from my awareness of my innate wholeness, and then wanting others to give to me what I am unwilling to give to myself.
Can you relate?
As I realized what was happening, that I was seeking inner peace through the external world rather than finding it within, I remembered to turn inward. To listen to myself, to honor and acknowledge and validate the energy that was cycling within.
And then, following the Embodied Root Wholeness methodology, released the energetic pattern that believed that I could ever be disconnected from my innate wholeness.
By re-establishing my awareness of my innate wholeness, I auto-magically released those two people from the responsibility of making me happy. I disentangled my wellbeing from their behavior, and re-embodied my inner peace. I found my power, and found a new path forward.
This path, of turning inward before turning outward, completely changed my perspective on what was happening, and restored my peace with the present situation and moment.
If this sounds interesting, please reach out. I'd love to share this path with like-minded travelers.
When we lose our center, when we experience disturbed peace, by any "outside" event, experience, interaction, person, perception, our culture teaches us that we will restore our peace when that "thing" changes. That our restored peace is found "out there," when something is rectified.
This is actually infantile thinking. It is more deeply true that the reason we lost our center is because we hold a belief that goes against our wholeness, that we believe that others can harm us, that we are taking the behavior of another personally.
This happens because we become entangled with the outside world, and forget our sovereignty, freedom, and wholeness.
We learn to disconnect from our sovereignty, freedom and wholeness in the culture, in our families, in our communities, in our religions. And these patterns of disconnection are disempowering and upside down.
Losing our center is a call for going inward, and honoring the pain that is cycling, so we can heal ('restore wholeness') within ourselves. Only after we have restored our center can we see the situation clearly enough to know what to do, what do say, and to whom.
Losing our center is a call to going inward, clearing the path within back to our wholeness. Only then will we know our true power, our True Nature, our innate wholeness and peace. Only then will we be free.
Everything, everything, everything, everything is an aspect of Source.
This is true for the unseen realm and the seen realm.
Source is comprised of energy, and so are we...and so is everything.
Energy underlies everything.
We are born deeply connected to our awareness of our aspect of Source, and energy was our first language.
We lose this awareness of Source, and of the language of energy, through the cultural conditioning process, or cultural programming.
(When very loving and well meaning people taught us how they knew how to be safe in the world, how to be controllable.)
If all things are an aspect of Source, they are all innately equal, sovereign, free, and whole. Everything - from the unseen realm to the seen realm - is inherently equal.
At the heart of our cultural programming is an inherent belief in inequality. This belief in the inequality of all things is a direct result of disconnecting from our awareness of our Wholeness, of our Aspect of Source, of our awareness of our inherent equality.
Of the Source-ness, or equality, of all things.
Believing in inherent inequality is a byproduct of this disconnection from Source, from our awareness of our wholeness, from being One with all things including Source.
When we are connected with our wholeness, with awareness that we are an aspect of Source, we automatically see the same in all other beings.
Because we are all energetic beings, this belief in the inequality of all things is held energetically in the body. Energy is the medium of life.
Because the belief in inequality is untrue, and because is was acquired through the cultural conditioning process and is comprised of energy, it can be released.
Releasing the energetic patterns that hold the beliefs in place returns the accumulated and pent up energy back to the Energy of Life to be free and to flow freely.
And, over time, as we release more and more of the patterns, we no longer experience life through that lens.
The first step on the road to 'healing,' (restoring wholeness) is to become emotionally available to ourselves.
This is a first step in that process - learning how to listen to ourselves again. Learning how to trust ourselves again. Learning how to trust the truth in our bodies, and steer from there - no matter how inconvenient it is on the outside.
One way to do this is the Embodied Root Wholeness process. If this sparks a yes within you, and you would like to learn more, please reach out for a FREE 15-minute chat.
"The point of spirituality isn't to just act like everything is pretty and positive all the time, and like everything will always work out. The point is to give you the tools to turn complex situations into opportunities and empower you to work through the heavy emotions you face in your daily life in a healthy, productive way."
Our children are given to us for such a short period of time. As the parent of two teenagers I am acutely and poignantly aware of how short our remaining time together within the same house is.
One question that has been valuable to me lately is this: Fast forwarding 10 years, what do I want most to have imparted to these precious human beings?
For me, the answer is that I want to have imparted the path back to being peaceful, whole, and free. To trust themselves completely, and to honor their truth and follow it where ever it may lead. To embody their wholeness and to live from there.
And, being clear on what my highest values in parenting are, the next step is to embody and model those values so loudly, so clearly, so consciously, that everything to the contrary doesn’t stick.
If you’re like me, the values I desire most in parenting are also those which I most deeply need to learn myself.
And because we cannot create on the outside that which we do not embody on the inside, the next act is to consciously, intentionally, and religiously release all barriers that I hold within myself to embodying these truths and these values.
Only then will I be able to create these on the outside.
And so, the work of parenting, is to be differently, and not do differently.
The doing will naturally follow the being.
The Embodied Root Wholeness is one path for honoring and releasing the barriers, it's my way. What's your way?
Did you know that the Ayurvedic Sciences believe that food is only 30% of the energy that we ingest, digest, and process every day? The rest is all the energy we encounter as we go throughout our lives - things like other people, verbal and nonverbal communications, travel/commuting/driving, "entertainment." like tv, movies, videos, music, and so much more.
For me, I prefer to fill my cells with the wildest, purest, most natural sources of energy available.
How about you?
If you suffer from seasonal allergies, go out into nature and find the root plant. Touch it. Honor it. Feel it. See how it feels inside the body. What does it want you to know? What does it evoke inside?
Allergies represent a place where we do not feel safe in the world - the world is literally attacking us, we are defending ourselves against the world. Consider that. That means that on some level we do not feel safe in the world.
Our deepest truth is that we are an aspect of Source. And, there is nothing in this world that is not also an aspect of Source. Seen or unseen, all was created by the Great Creator. We are an aspect of that, and so is everything else.
And, because we are Source, and so is everything else, there is nothing that is inherently unsafe for us... in our deepest layers we are all connected. On some level we are already connected to it.
If we trust ourselves to open to and examine the belief that we are unsafe in the world, and the energetic patterns connected to this belief, then we can restore our own wholeness, and heal this pattern.
What does the "allergen" want you to honor and release?
Our whole lives we are taught to NOT touch things.
But when we touch things we feel things.
If we want to know the truth in our bodies, we must feel things.
Touching the world around us is a way to learn about ourselves. How things feel inside. What is true for us.
We must re-establish, remember, reconnect with the truth in our bodies on the spiritual awaking path..
(Go ahead, trust yourself to handle it.)
Touch the next five things that you see, and make note of how they feel inside your body...what sensations are elicited in your gut, your heart, your throat, your root. Just hold them, touch them, and see what happens inside.
This beautiful shrub is a Quihoui Privet, a member of the Olive family native to Korea and China.
It makes me feel giddy inside.
Pro Tips for touching in nature:
Today's message from the woods: That's you, too.
There has been recent rain, and the woods were glowing, glistening, brilliant in the sunlight. And when I asked the simple question, "What is important for me to know now, my eyes were drawn to the tree and those were the words that accompanied the sight.
And, so many of the messages that I receive in the woods are about feelings, not words. And the feelings that these words and this image evoked were as follows:
- That magnificence, that brilliance, that beauty...that's you, too. Blindingly, brilliantly reflecting light. You can trust your God-given magnificence and brilliance, you can brilliantly shimmer with light and reflect your beauty unashamedly. Proudly. Naturally. It is natural to be brilliant.
It is natural to stand alone, while being interconnected at the roots.
It is unnatural to hide.
This spontaneous message was particularly beautiful because I had entered the woods in a completely different state. I was angry, I was caught up in an energetic pattern, a program, that was re-experiencing a time when it felt unsafe to be me, to stand alone, to be free. A time when I experienced rejection for being blindingly, trustingly, freely brilliant.
And, I had released the outgrown patterns with the following statements:
- I release the pattern of not trusting myself with my truth.
- I release the pattern of not trusting myself to handle my truth.
- I release the pattern of not trusting myself to be free.
- I release the pattern of looking externally for safety instead of internally.
- I trust myself to be free, to be safe being free.
- I trust that it is safe to be free.
- I trust myself to stand alone in my freedom.
And then, later, this beautiful message: that brilliant, stand-alone being, that is you, too.
Thank you, thank you, thank you.
[As I embodied this beautiful message, another meaning to the words occurred to me as well: we are all one, and that tree is you, too. But that came from the brain and contemplation, and was not the original message.]
Norma Van Horn