We were not born overriding the truth in our bodies, seeking external validation, and judging/denying/rejecting parts of ourselves.  

Let me repeat that: We were not born overriding the truth in our bodies, seeking external validation, and judging/denying/rejecting parts of ourselves.

These are learned behaviors.

We learned these behaviors from (hopefully) very loving people that simply believed the lie themselves, modeled it, and perpetuated it.

(And then we learned the lesson faithfully and now model and perpetuate it ourselves...just in case you think you're a victim.)

This pattern is ancient.  It goes way back.  And it is NOT personal.

These beliefs were acquired, and because they are not innately true, they can be released.

But, inner peace and wholeness and bliss does not choose us.  We must choose it.

And so, when we become aware of the patterns, when we find ourselves disembodied or judging ourselves (or others), when we find that pain is running the show, we have the opportunity to release the ancient energetic pattern.  

Any time we are disconnected from our bodies, or in a state of disturbed peace, we are running a pattern.  And activated patterns are ready to be released.  The Embodied Root Wholeness process is one way of releasing the patterns, permanently and completely, at the deepest root cause and connection.

And the result is a reconnection with our wholeness, our peace, our divinity.

If you'd like to learn more, reach out for a FREE 15 minute chat!

​Blue skies and warm wishes.

Rather than building self-confidence, whatever that is, focus on building self trust. We build self trust by listening and honoring, that’s it. It is eminently doable, simply a matter of focus and choice.

We listen to the messages the body is giving, and we honor and follow are yeses, and honor and walk away from our nos.

It is natural to follow our yeses and honor our nos. The only reason we would not do so because we are prioritizing an external reward structure over our internal truth. 

So then, anytime we see ourselves resisting either path, we know that a culturally conditioned program is active.

When we see a culturally conditioned program is active, there is an opportunity to release that pattern and restore our connection with our wholeness, our truth.

​And then we are free.

The etymology of the word "radical" is 'of the root.'  In other words, our deepest truth.

The etymology of "healing" means 'to make whole.' 

The path of 'radical healing' is to make us whole at the root, to fuse our deepest truth with our wholeness, and live from there.

In a sense radical healing is the simplest of paths  - it requires nothing more of us than to live from the deepest truth and wholeness.  No special doctors, no special treatments, no special equipment..no legitimate, actual barriers.

But, in practice, nothing about this path is easy.

To live from our deepest wholeness and trust is actually revolutionary. It makes us uncontrollable to the external control structures.  

But the payoff is huge: freedom, sovereignty, peace. And once we have a taste of the good stuff flowing unceasingly from an inexhaustible, abundant wellspring within, we will never look on the outside for this experience again.  

We will never look among the branches for what that which can only be found among the roots. 

And then: peaceful, sovereign, free, and whole, embodying our deepest truth, we will make radically different choices on the outside. Because we cannot create on the outside but we do not embody on the inside. And so, this is how we change the world. Embodying our wholeness and our truth, and then doing the next right thing. It is an inner act of revolution, long before it is an act on the outside. But when we do act, it carries the energetic signature of our true, innate, human power. 

And it is good. It is exactly the medicine that the world needs right now.

When we heal ourselves, we heal the whole world.

There is no greater purpose in life, no matter what we spend our days “doing.”  

And, in this way, we are all healers. Magicians, sorcerers. Embodying heaven on earth. Bringing the divine to life.

With honor for all, amen.

It 'others' us, it creates in-groups and out-groups.  It says some people are ok and some are not, or some parts of us are ok and some are not.  This belief controls us and makes us edit our own behavior.  It makes us judge and question our truth, and it makes us small.  

The belief is a contruct of man, it is made up.  And, it is fear based, stemming from a core belief that we are disconnected from our own innate divinity, our innate wholeness, our innate inner peace.

The deeper truth is that we are all innately perfect, innately whole, innately peaceful, and innately divine.

We are all aspects of the Great Creator, of the Divine Source of All.  It takes an incredible amount of diversity to comprise and represent the whole of all, and every aspect of everything, everywhere (seen and unseen) is an aspect of the same Source.  And so we are all, ALL, divine, all the time.

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In my ReWilding work, I take people into the woods where we explore energy practices to remember how to listen to our deepest truth again.  A woman from a nearby city recently came out with her friend.  She shared that she is a highly functioning autistic person, and that she works with high special-needs students in a public high school, where her students are mentally, physically, and emotionally 'disabled.'  She is regularly struck/harmed while doing her work, but the unique way that her brain works makes her a perfect fit for this work because she could understand her students and not take their behavior personally.  She thrives in this environment, and calls work her 'happy place.'  

As further evidence of this fit - the turnover in her department is 100% every year, however she has been there 10 years with no plans to leave.

This is extraordinary, and a perfect example that there is a place for everyone, and we need everyone's unique talents and truths to be fully unleashed and available into the world for the whole to be healthier and stronger, so that we can all be all that we can be.

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The opportunity is to release all labels, identities, judgements and fears that are created through the belief of our disconnection, and instead choose to restore our connection with our inner truth*, with our innate wholeness, and with our innate inter-connection with the life that is happening all around us.  And then simply trust ourselves, and do the next right thing.

It's pretty simple, actually.

In a world that teaches us not to trust our truth, it is a radical act of love to trust ourselves, and to share that truth generatively and generously with the world.

And it feels so damn good.

*The Embodied Root Wholeness process is one way of restoring our connection.  If this resonates and sparks within you, please reach out for a free 15 minute chat.  I'd love to connect.

“Your children are not your children.They are sons and daughters of Life's longing for itself.
They come through you but not from you.
And though they are with you yet they belong not to you.

You may give them your love but not your thoughts,
For they have their own thoughts.
You may house their bodies but not their souls,
For their souls dwell in the house of tomorrow, which you cannot visit, not even in your dreams.

You may strive to be like them, but seek not to make them like you.
For life goes not backward nor tarries with yesterday.
You are the bows from which your children as living arrows are sent forth.
The archer sees the make upon the path of the infinite, and He bends you with His might that His arrows may go swift and far.
Let your bending in the archer's hand be for gladness.
For even as He loves the arrow that flies, so He also loves the bow that is stable.”

~Kahlil Gibran

It is natural to be brilliant.  It is natural to be fearless and wild and free.  It is natural to be whole and complete and peaceful.

Cultural conditioning teaches us otherwise.  It teaches us to look outward for safety, validation, and control instead of embodying and trusting our truth with every cell of our being.

So, now that we remember this, when, where, how will we let this pattern go?

Many of us feel drawn to finding our "purpose," to feeling like our lives have meaning.  So we seek an external act or role or contribution in order to find this meaning.  

But in reality we are actually feeling disconnected from our own internal awareness of feeling meaningful, of feeling whole and peaceful and alive.  And so we seek something "out there" that will provide those feelings within us.  

We look outside in order to feel better inside.  This is ineffective, disempowered, and temporary at best.

And when we rely on any particular circumstance to be present on the outside in order to feel a particular way on the inside we are vulnerable to the state of the outer world for our own inner wellbeing.

This is disempowering.

The deeper truth is that we cannot create on the outside what we do not embody on the inside.  So, rather than seeking external things to fill an inner hole, it is more empowering to reconnect with our own inner disconnection, and then bring our wholeness to the world.

Because, as Mother Teresa said, there are no great (outer) acts, only small acts with great (inner) love.

Here's a quick 3-step path to finding your peace, finding your power, finding your purpose:

1. What changes do you want to see in the world?  What are the biggest problems "out there?"  What qualities do you seek to experience through the fulfillment of your dream/achievement/purpose?

2. Open your heart to embodying these qualities within yourself, right now.  Release all the barriers you hold within yourself to fully embodying these qualities right here, right now.  (Embodied Root Wholeness Process can help.)

3. Do the next right thing. And fill the world with the energetic signature of your whole, peaceful, complete self.  

4. (Repeat)

Several years ago I came home from the grocery store while talking to my sister on the phone about my nephews health.  He was having some health problems, and it was upsetting.  In that moment I felt worried, powerless, and helpless about my precious nephew.
As I entered the house, I walked into a beautiful scene: Jeff and the boys were playing legos at the table, and they were peaceful and joyful and in a bubble of love.  It was truly lovely.  And, while I registered the scene, I couldn’t see it because I was in my own pain.

I raised my voice to complain that no one was there to meet me to help bring in the groceries, and no one had opened the door for me.  (To be clear, no one ever did that, this wasn’t new, …but it was a Big Problem in this moment.)

As I was barfing on them, I simultaneously registered the impact of my energy and words had on my family.  It was like a soufflé that just cratered and fell.  Within moments, the boys started bickering with each other.  The beautiful bubble of connection and joy and safety was over.  

It was humbling and painful to see the impact of my actions, to see that I had the power to harm the most beautiful and precious of my relationships…that in that moment, because of my unprocessed and unfiltered energy that was being indiscriminately discharged at them, my boys were not safe with me.

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“In the 1960s, meteorologist Edward Lorenz discovered that even the smallest changes in the atmospheric currents, those viewed as being insignificant by usual standards, created huge discrepancies in developing weather patterns.  This phenomenon became known as the butterfly effect of modern chaos theory.  Even the slightest addition to the atmospheric current could create drastic changes in the weather patterns globally.  Something as small as a butterfly flapping its wings determined whether a storm would develop on the other side of the world a year later.  Chaos theory taught us that every current that enters into the flow has an impact on the overall pattern.”

• Sacred Instructions by Sherri Mitchell

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I see these two stories as being deeply interconnected.  In the same way that the smallest of imaginable atmospheric events - a butterfly flapping its wings - can directly create events that take place a year later on the other side of the planet, my energy can do the same thing.

These are the exact same dynamics, because, of course, they are both comprised of energy.

This means that not only did my words and actions have an impact that morning, but unless those actions are taken responsibility for, are addressed, atoned, and responsibly healed, that that discharge of unprocessed and indiscriminately discharged energy will continue to live on and shape future events.

It’s humbling to know that I. am. that. powerful.

But, it’s true.

And that is why my wholeness, your wholeness, the wholeness of all, matters.  Because the absence of my wholeness - disturbed peace and indiscriminate energetic discharge - will cycle and expand and grow, and ultimately wreak havoc in some altogether distant moment.

And, just as we create those future events through our unprocessed energy, we are simultaneously impacted by previous unprocessed energy that took place in the past, and in a different place.

These energies will continue to be recycled and regurgitated, growing ever larger, until we learn how to take responsibility for the quality of our energy.  Until we take responsibility for our wholeness.  Until we stop seeking to blame and judge others, and simply honor the energy, release it, restore our wholeness, and stop the cycle.

We are powerful creators, and our wholeness matters.  The problem is, until we embody this wholeness and see our place in the greater whole and see how we perpetuate that which we do not heal, we will seek to change people, places, events, out there.  

It is the act of growing up to take complete responsibility for the quality of our energy, and taking responsibility for our energy, and restoring our own wholeness before engaging on the outside, is an act of tremendous empowerment.

And once we experience it, we will never look at the world the same again.

My identical twin sister is not talking to me right now.  This is one of deepest sources of rejection fathomable to me - we are genetically the same person, and from a scientific perspective at our point of origin we were the exact same person.  (Of course, our genes have altered through our respective life experiences and other factors.)  

In a sense this is one form of me rejecting me.

There was an exchange which preceded this, and 'incident,' but the exchange didn't happen in a vacuum, it happened within the ecosystem of our greater relationship and all of it's energetic patterns.  

Within my family lineage rejection is a pattern.  My maternal grandmother rejected and excluded my mother before my grandmother died, leaving my mother with the shambles of maternal rejection and no recourse.  In my perspective, this precipitated a decades-long health issue that my mother (now 75) is still dealing with today.

At various times in our relationship I have rejected my sister, and many, many others, in my life as well.  I understand both sides of the pattern.

Awareness of the absence of my sister's presence in my life occurs daily.  And, pain cycles regularly as well, along with my longstanding coping techniques of blame, judgement, anger, etc toward her.

And, through this experience, I have started to practice something different.

Because as tempted as I am to judge her reaction to the exchange on that day, that would place the nexus of my pain outside my body - it would mean that I would need the outside to be different in order for me to be happy.

And, deeper still, this is an energetic pattern.  It actually isn't personal, and it isn't about the 'reason.'  It is energy subconsciously driving a reaction in order to protect oneself.

So, as the recipient of an intimate 'rejection,' I have the opportunity to grow through this experience and heal the energetic pattern at it's core.  This is what that looks like for me:

• Become aware.  Every time the pain and judgement and blame cycle, notice that I have left my body.  I am experiencing an energetic pattern, which always results in me leaving my body and looking externally for a solution to internal pain.  This energetic pattern will *always* leave me powerless and disembodied.
• Once I am aware that I have disembodied and have left my body, re-embody.  Come back into awareness of what is happening within my body.  Feel into the body, feel the energy of the pain.  This is what I am trying to avoid knowing, this pain is why I left my bodkin the first place.
• Honor that this isn't what I want to be happening.  Really feel into the statement, "This isn't what I want to be happening.  I wish this was different.  This hurts."  All of these types of statements.
• Release the energetic pattern of looking externally for things to be different so that I can be happy, of judging another for anything, of seeking to control another so that I can feel peaceful, of blaming others.  (The Embodied Root Wholeness practice is my way of releasing the pattern.)
• Repeat this process every time I become aware of the energy of blame, of judgement, of anger, towards her.

The result after going through this process is peace.  The situation hasn't changed - my sister still isn't talking to me and I still feel that absence every day - but I have found my power in the situation and I have restored my own inner peace.  

And, this leaves me feeling compassionate and loving toward her.  Which is quite beautiful - I don't need for her to behave in any particular way for me to love her.  Her approval of me is independent of my love for her.

And, hopefully through this experience, I can begin to heal my own patterns of anger, judgement, rejection and blame toward myself and toward others.  And, in doing so, not perpetuate and pass on this pattern so easily to my children.  Perhaps this is how we heal generational, inherited, ancestral patterns of pain - healing them one by one in our own hearts.

In any event, this has been a profound experience of healing in my life.  I find myself feeling grateful for the opportunity to heal this pattern within myself, because it makes me more free.  And being more free is bliss.

If this is something that resonates for you and you would like to explore this topic in a guided way, please reach out for a guided Embodied Root Wholeness session, or schedule a free 15 minute exploratory chat to see if this is right for you.

Blessings for the road.  We are all just walking each other home.

“What do you mean, ‘all alone?’  What about all of us?”

This morning I was walking through the woods, contemplating a relationship dynamic in my life right now.  I became aware of feeling that I was all alone on this path, on this journey, and that I was about to be even more alone.  So I called in everyone I could think of to talk to: all of my angels, guardian angels, Archangel Raphael, Jesus, Mary, everyone.  

And this was the first message I received. In fact, they were referring to the energy of the nature that was all around me.

When I feel ‘all alone,’ I am disconnected from the life that is happening all around me.  And there is life, and energy all around us, all the time.

Because everything is comprised of energy.

And then, this message: “Your safety is not Out There (meaning with the other humans, in the culture),  your safety is inside.”

“Be like one of them - the trees, the animals, everything.  Stand alone in your sovereignty, but belonging because you are there.”

“You belong because you belong.”

"You belong everywhere you go, because you are there. It is not a matter of belonging or not belonging. It is a matter of where your energy feels good and where your energy doesn’t feel good. Your safety is found on the inside.”

We are all comprised of energy, and we all are interacting and engaging with the energy all around us, all the time. That’s why you can never not belong, your energy is there and it’s engaging with the energy all around, and so of course you belong. You belong because you’re there.  

It is never about whether other’s perceive you as belonging, at an energetic level you are already belonging. 

Instead, it is a matter of discernment. Do you want to belong here? 

When you are fully embodied and connected with your wholeness, is this a match?  Does this feel good inside the body?

The first step, always, is there a store once wholeness and re-embody oneself.

My take away from this beautiful experience is that we humans understand belonging and safety all wrong. Completely upside down.  We think safety is achieved “out there,” through external approval.  Because that’s what “belonging” really means to humans - external approval.  And so we think that it’s possible to not belong somewhere.  But at an energetic level we always belong, because our energy is engaging with the energy all around.

We think we want to belong because then we’ll be safe, but true safety is never found outside the body.  True safety is embodying our wholeness, and discerning if an energy feels good to us or not.

Because the surest path to losing connection with our wholeness is to override the energetic truth in our body that we should stay when an energy doesn’t feel good.

So, rather than seeking safety out there, by belonging, let’s see this for what it is energetically - seeking approval by disembodying and disconnecting from our innate wholeness.

True belonging and safety are 180’ opposite - we are always safe when we embodying our wholeness, and discern if the energy around us feels good to us inside our bodies.  If it is a match.  If it is, we may enjoy it like a tree enjoys the forest - by being sovereign and contained within itself, equal with all other beings around us.

And if it is not a match, embody oneself and trust oneself to handle walking away from an energy that does not feel good.

Blessings for the road, dear traveller.

~And, many, many thanks to the messengers in the woods today.  I trust you know how much I needed this message. 
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