For as long as I can remember, I have experienced cycles of feeling invisible. It happened again this weekend, in two different relationships. As I found myself ruminating on feeling loneliness, fear, confusion, etc, and powerless within the dynamic, I realized that I was looking externally for validation, acknowledgement, recognition.
I was taking the behavior of the two relationships, and the perceived lack of attention and reciprocity, personally, and I was viewing their behavior through the lens of my belief/pattern that I was invisible...that my needs didn't matter...that they have the power to harm me.
I was taking their behavior personally, and giving it the meaning that I was invisible and powerless.
It's a pattern of disconnecting from my awareness of my innate wholeness, and then wanting others to give to me what I am unwilling to give to myself.
Can you relate?
As I realized what was happening, that I was seeking inner peace through the external world rather than finding it within, I remembered to turn inward. To listen to myself, to honor and acknowledge and validate the energy that was cycling within.
And then, following the Embodied Root Wholeness methodology, released the energetic pattern that believed that I could ever be disconnected from my innate wholeness.
By re-establishing my awareness of my innate wholeness, I auto-magically released those two people from the responsibility of making me happy. I disentangled my wellbeing from their behavior, and re-embodied my inner peace. I found my power, and found a new path forward.
This path, of turning inward before turning outward, completely changed my perspective on what was happening, and restored my peace with the present situation and moment.
If this sounds interesting, please reach out. I'd love to share this path with like-minded travelers.
Norma Van Horn