My evolving definition of success

"Success" is a loaded word for me.  For most of my life it has had external connotations.  Success was something that consisted in material things or external validation. In truth, sometimes it still does.  But more and more my definition of success is shifting to an internal definition - a state of how I want to feel in my life.  Not what my life looks like on the outside, or to others.  Or how others value or judge me at all.  They are not doing what I'm doing, or know what I know, how can they possibly place value on me?  That is my job. 

My evolving definition of success can be summed by the feeling of laying flat on my back, on the earth, with the sun and wind moving the land around me.  That is it.  

The words I would use to describe it only do it partial justice, because  words are limited in that way.  But the words include bliss, joy, peace, connection.  Majesty.  Dignity.  Freedom.

But success is a feeling.  And no one else can give it to me.

Hallelujah!!