For a long time I have flogged myself to know what I "should do with my life." As if there was a single answer that would make me feel happier, more complete, more whole. Searching for my calling, my place, what I was meant to do.
All this, even as I worked in some of the most meaningful work available - transforming the lives of rural Ethiopians through sustainable education, water, health and food programs.
And, it still wasn't enough to calm the pain in my heart.
But now, after 2 years in the woods, I have felt the answer in the form of the bliss that I feel when walking through the woods. This is the meaning of life.
My purpose as a human being is to embody my humanity. I feel even more on purpose when I am connected deeply in my cells in nature than I do using my mind in the outer world. Even when I was using that mind to improve the lives of other people. Somehow, now, I feel I am in greater service to the world. Living from this place is my purpose.
For me, my purpose is internal. It is a feeling of bliss and interconnection with life. Everything else is a detail. Where I live, how I create an income, who I spend my time with, what I wear. Details. For so long I had gotten it reversed, upside down. In truth, it is so very simple, And it cannot be found "out there."
Now, the meaning of life is to experience this bliss in the woods, and to share it with the world.
Norma Van Horn